I kept rewriting my blog because it is far too long winded.
So I decide to write on this topic – My future. LOLX

I was offered to change my job.
First, Angel recommended me to her workplace as they are really short of staff.
Then, my financial advisor recommended me to work with him in ManuLife.
The later one sounds really attractive because of the pay and career prospects if you are successful.
But I am just not confident to try out both offers because I really feel that I am not up to it.

Initially, the route to further my studies was planned to be SIM RMIT.
But there is a new offer, highly recommended by Angel and Mad – SMA Murdoch University.
Both of them are quite determined to study that already.
I am really so tempted to join them but I have my concerns.
If I choose to study alone, I think I will opt for SIM UOL because I don’t want to do projects alone in RMIT.
I feel so reliant on my bunch of friends now.
Where has that Joanne who could step into YTSS, Motorola, Gramophone, YA Guides and NYP independently gone to?

Song intro: Xu yao ni de ai - FIR & Ah Sin

I want to be smarter than him.
11:47:00 PM

It all started on Friday when I took a day of my work.
And surprisingly, guess where did my darling invite me to?
K Lunch at AMK
We sang a whole lot of old and shouting songs. HAHA
Then we proceeded to our usual hangout in town to do some shopping.
I bought my TOPMAN belt and shawl.

Saturday night, proceeded to eat Geylang and finally ate my long craved Tian Ji Zhou.
Then to Mind’s Café at Boat Quay.
Other than the usual mind game that I always got fong sha by the others, we played this rather interesting game.
It is a game where you can know how others think of you by votes just like survivor.
In the midst, I got surprised by the NYDC Goldmine cheesecake and birthday song.
Love you darling, for getting the cheesecake for me. HEHE
I got a bigger shock when I opened the present.

My first thought was OH MY GOD!
My first feeling was XIN TONG (for the money they have spent on me).
The first words that I wanted to say to them were VERY EXPENSIVE LEHZ!
But I still love the gift because it is an idea both my cliques (Secondary and Black Friday) collaborated and give it to me.
But I still prefer the handmade gift.


And it is with a complimentary gift.


Back home, I was shocked to see this big figure on my computer table.
LOLX. I requested my dad for 20plus bucks small, huggable, soft bear the other time remember?
And it turns out to be this huge, heavy, limited edition and almost a hundred bucks bear.

It alone can sit on my chair; you can imagine how huge it is.
HAHA, I like it but I have problems finding a suitable place to place it. LOLX
Anyway, thanks dad!

Yesterday, I had dinner at this Indonesian restaurant with my Secondary clique at Clarke Quay.
I always spoil their surprise, or maybe I am much smarter these days. HAHA
I was smiling and reading at the handmade card they gave me when I suddenly turn to see them preparing the cheesecake for me. LOLX
Anyway I love it lar, thanks guys!




With lots of loves, hugs and kisses to all of you, thanks for the effort and money spent on my 20th birthday!
To Black Friday, thanks for making your hands dirty to make the gift for me, the money spent on the iPod, the effort of attending my celebration and all the blessings for me.
Especially to my Wu Gui darling for organizing and running about getting and making the gift for me.
To my Secondary clique, thanks for all the surprises, the money spent on the iPod, the blessings, the effort to attend me celebration.
Thank you daddy for the huge gift!
Thank you all the others for your blessings!
My sis, Debbie, Ah Sun, Ye Wei, Li Beng, Sok Ying, my partner Christy, Agnes, Kay Ti, Filzah, Huiting, Dennis

More pictures will be up, provided they look good. LOLX

Song intro: Bu neng gen qing ren shuo de hua - Fan Wei Qi & Liu Ruo Ying

I want to be smarter than him.
3:28:00 PM

This month sucks.
I have not been feeling good ever since this month starts.
Every single day, I will feel worse with all the different devastating news.
One by one they just knock me deeper into the grounds and I could not climb up.
Some tries to reach out their hands to pull me but I rejected their kindness because I refuse to be dependent on others.
Some whom I hope to rely on at times declined to help.
And for some, I held on to their hands but they are just not strong enough to pull me up.
Futile efforts I have made, just because I am not strong and independent enough.
I am just a normal person for goodness sake.
Please do not treat me as a saint.

Friday after work, I had my first date with my partner.

Finally I go to Chomp Chomp!!
And guess what, both of us spent 25bucks in total, finishing ALL OF THESE!
1. Satay Bee Hoon

2. Hokkien Mee

3. Super big lime juice

4. Stingray

5. BBQ Chicken Wings

6. Fried Toufu and Fried Vegetable thing

7. Egg Beancurd

And this is the culprit! HAHA


After that I went to meet someone I have not met for four years.

Song intro: Jue Jiang - Rainie Yang

I want to be smarter than him.
2:54:00 PM

Can you believe that I am working now on a Saturday?!
AH!!!!!!!!
Can someone just sentence me to death?!
My life is so meaningless...
My life is so dead and boring...
I miss going out...
I miss going out with everyone...
HAIZ..

Song intro: Wan mei bi li - Rainie Yang

I want to be smarter than him.
11:51:00 AM

I think most may be surprised why am I home so early today.
I took half day leave because I had to clear my leave(s) and also to accompany my mum to her checkup at TTSH.
It was also at TTSH that I realize I am so sajiao these days, acting very much like a small kid, when I actually pointed to this Winnie the pooh soft toy and told my dad that I want that.

HAHA. He just replied, No! You thought you still a small kid ah?
Ouch. HAHA. This is the first time in my entire life that I told my parents that I want a toy and I got rejected.
I swear that I had never ever done that when I was a kid from what I remember.
But hey, I am not the only one that is abnormal these days, my darling, surprisingly, has also been crazy sajiao-ing.
Nevertheless, we have become more and more lesbian. Oops.

It has been one month ever since my partner came.
We have been relying on each other until this month; we were forced to go on separate ways.
Or I should say I am forced to force her to be independent.
Well, Christy, hope that you are not upset about me being a little attitude when you consult me on stuff.
I feel so pressurized actually, to be mean to someone.

Announcement! I still have 4 more days to take leave.
Someone please date me to go anywhere. HAHA
I managed to take leave on the 19th this month.

Every single morning these days when I offer joss sticks to my ancestors, I will pray in my heart for them to fulfill my three 20th wishes this year.
I wish, I wish, I wish.
But it seems that they are punishing me for blurting the wishes out to darling too early because birthday wishes should be kept as a secret.
I shall keep a low profile until my 20th and hope that I can see a glimpse of hope.


My favourite alcohol now - Tequila shots

My favourite cocktail - Long Island Tea

My favourite food - Claypot Toufu from


I LOVE TO EAT TOUFU!!!!!! HAHA

My parents

My treat this month :)

Song intro: Wo wei she me hai ai ni - Mi Lu Bing

I want to be smarter than him.
8:42:00 PM