For the past week, I have been traveling around preparing for my darling’s birthday.
[Apart from the hectic OTs]
I have been meeting people from BF at different venues - from Serangoon to Orchard to Potong Pasir to Bugis to sign her card.
Getting the gift [Limited Edition Green Crumpler The Western Lawn sling bag] and movie tickets, sending her gift to her office, making her cards.
And then came the actual day of her birthday.
After the supposedly surprising gift, to the very funny but lame The Simpsons movie, to the not-in-the-mood chilling at Meze Bar, then the crazy games at Minds Café.
I found out that I really suck at reaction games but I am quite good in making expressions. HAHA
Finally found a game that I am leading ahead of the others.
Well, hope you enjoyed.

Not forgetting Rubber’s birthday celebration at Tian Tian Steamboat on Wednesday.
I had so much fun chatting with the girls about our past.
They were so amazed that I can remember almost every single celebration.
Well, not bragging, but I think it is because I planned almost most of the celebrations ma.
That is why my impression will be deeper.

Then that dreadful Friday - Angelia’s last day at work.
The thought of not able to see her almost everyday at work makes me real emotional.
Well, maybe because I have been seeing her almost everyday in school, during IPP, at work, in k and mahjong etc.
Suddenly, she will only appear in k and mahjong makes me miss her so much.
But, I am still happy for her, going back to school.

Tomorrow, I am going to battle my way at work ALONE.
I just hope that I have a Siamese twin to aid me.
HAHA. Fat hope. Chanting and praying…
A fresh new start tomorrow, my first goal!
I SHALL BE PUNCTUAL!

And I got my SHE signatures today.

Sometimes, I just need someone to listen to me.
No matter I am right or wrong, I just need someone to understand how I feel.
Make me feel recognized, make me feel useful, make me feel less bothered.

Sometimes I just wonder if I have done the right thing.
Covering flaws of others but in the end causing them to be the bad guys.

Song intro: Chuang zhuo qian yan - Lee Hom

I want to be smarter than him.
11:12:00 PM

I was occupied with all the overtimes and part time job.

Okay, Mad and I started the part time weekend Customer Service Officer Job at Habourfront Centre.
Apparently, I love that job much more than what I am doing in the bank now.
I like to see the smiling faces of people when they are happy with my services.
It makes me happy too to see that I can actually help them with what I know.
It makes me feel more useful, less stupid, more recognized.
That is why I wanted to study Hospitality or Tourism.
Apart from music and singing, that is something I am interested in.
The more I try out this job, the more I want to venture into this line.
But then again, there are the pros and cons.
Maybe for now, I am still greedy about the monetary terms.
Perhaps I am being realistic.
I want a luxurious life for my family and me in the future.
Whether I am happy or not, that is secondary.
People may think otherwise, I still can earn big bucks with my interest.
Though I may be interested but that does not mean that I can excel in it.

I have yet signed any papers to recognize me as permanent staff in my bank.
It makes me feel uneasy especially after I change my job scope.
Back to this team, I am overloaded with work.
It makes me grumpier when I am increasingly taking up more responsibilities which seem like more than two persons job.
Not only that, I question my ability to handle as well as the colleague(s) handing over to me.
Feeling demoralized, losing my appetite when I am dining alone, getting dehydrated forgetting to drink water and go toilet, losing my breath with all the things that is always stated as URGENT, I am wear out.

So tomorrow, I want to leave on the dot to celebrate Rubber’s advanced birthday celebration.
I miss having fun.

Song intro: Xiang ni - Tian guo de jie ti

I want to be smarter than him.
10:29:00 PM

If you wonder how my interview with the HR faired just now, I can tell you it is my worst interview ever.
I was so close to breaking down in front of the interviewer when she told me she don’t think she can convert me to permanent because she don’t think I suit the job.
But she was really pretty and nice to actually give me a second chance.
And I passed her assessment. PHEW!
After one and a half hour of promoting myself, I kept my rice bowl.

Continuing from my previous blog entry…
Please NEVER EVER hurt yourself!
I beg you. Let things go, let him go.
My dear(s), all of you can find someone better.

Song intro: Ba ai fang kai - FIR

I want to be smarter than him.
7:35:00 PM

I like to rely on people when I am feeling down because I also hope that when they encounter any problems, I can be someone they can rely on also.
But then I think it has always been my wishful thinking.
I may not be smart enough to understand your situation but then hey listen to me.
I am worried about you; do not disappear from my sight.
I kept crying when I frantically trying to locate you, to make sure you are alright.
I want to see you safe and sound in front of me.
I want to hug you to make sure you are there.
I want to lend you my shoulders to cry, be your punching bag.
I don’t mind reading from your blog, knowing from other people that you are not alright.
Just remember wherever you run to, I will always be at the same place here for you.

Song intro: Can fei - Wu Ke Qun

I want to be smarter than him.
10:37:00 PM

Graduation Pictures view here
Boon's 21st Birthday Pictures view here
Charlotte's 20th Birthday Pictureview here

Okay so I have compiled almost all the photos so these are some of the pictures we took on Graduation Day.


At the auditorium

My parents and I (Too bad my sister cannot come)

My guifeis and I


The BF members who came (Short of Kenny and Qamarul)

My favourite picture of that day

Another week is almost over.
I have started to have insufficient sleep since Tuesday.
Chatted till 3.30am during supper, but it was nice.

Happy Birthday Kenny!
Hope you like the gifts that we bought for you.
And thank my mum okay?! Haha.
She took the effort to find the phone for you.

I am going back over to admin team from next Monday onwards.
Well, I still have not completed my work at Kim Ling’s side.
So next week should be OT-ing.
And I still don’t understand why Mad and I signed our weekends away to the part time job that we are going to start work today.
Mad is there working now from 10am to 1pm, Habourfront Centre.
I am taking the 1pm to 10pm shift.
Tomorrow we will switch.
So anybody who will be going there come and visit us okay?
LOLX. I think it will be damn bored la.

Yesterday was Black Friday.
And we went to Pitstop café to eat and play games.
It is fun and worth it. HAHA
Then went to Eski Bar to chill and chat.


Anyway, I kind of miss the feeling of falling in love.
Even though it is one sided, but then it is still a very happy process to fall in love.
Well, I guessed my love life has been to a dead end.

Song intro: Goodbye - Janice Wei Lan

I want to be smarter than him.
10:26:00 AM

Well I was kind of sick of the frequency of my mood swings so I decided to close my blog for the weekends.
Now I am back.

For a moment I was still very happy about the Graduation and next day I was so sad for Boon that only I could make it for his birthday party.
Then the same night, I was happy again that Boon was really touched that half of us turned up and also the great news from the person himself that they are alright now.
See? The ups and downs happen so fast.

Anyway, right after Boon’s party, JQK Lia and I went to Yishun Safra to sing.
We were attended to the BIGGEST room which can hold more than 30 people.
LOLX. And we just cannot help walking and playing around the room all the while.
It was fun.


Happy 21st Birthday Boon!

I look so alien with the white specs on. HAHA

Okay so no revision done these weekends. Oops.
Hehe. I am super broke because my pay is not here yet.
SIANZ.

More pictures on the Graduation ceremony when I have compiled everything!

Song intro: Ta men shuo - Sammi Cheng

I want to be smarter than him.
10:34:00 PM

Okay I have finally graduated from NYP.
Whoa I am a big girl now. HAHA
Okay the ceremony was boring but throughout all these I was thinking of all the times I have spent in NYP.
Time really flies.
Like what Qamarul mentioned in the video, I still can remember the fish burger without the tartar sauce during orientation.
Anyway, I am still happy that I attended the ceremony especially when we got high after the ceremony taking pictures [something we haven’t done for a long time].
Even though most of the pictures I look ugly inside, but I still love them all.
I am so happy for Soe Kuan for getting the Silver Award and Diploma in Merit for Accountancy and Finance.

Oh yes, Mandy was there too. Isn't she pretty? HAHA

Then SHE, Yixiang, Mad and I went to Paragon’s Sushi Tei and The Heeren’s Spinelli to hang around.
Overall, I am happy.

But sometimes I just cannot understand this logic of life.
When you are enjoying a very comfy weather, there will always be a cold rain or hot sun to actually spoil the enjoyment.
What?! This is a test for a more interesting life?!
BULLSHIT!! God stop playing these tricks on us and make our lives meaningless to carry on.
Why can’t life or people be just as simple as ABC?
I am so pissed off with my life.

Song intro: Shi jie mo ri - Jay Chou

I want to be smarter than him.
5:09:00 PM

For a moment if you start to miss the writer of this blog and wonder where she has been…
Do not panic; I am not gone for good. HAHA
My internet connection at home is down so I only can use the internet in my office.

I have been to three interviews so far.
Trading and settlements officer
I was tested on MATHS. LOL.
Many will think that I will easily score, but I have a big problem.
I don’t know how to read electricity bills. HAHA.
Anyway I think that the job is kind of fun, calculating etc.

Next, I went for another interview as a Business Analyst.
The job scope was challenging and I think it is suitable for people like Kenny and Angelia.
And it is something I am interested in.
But I think I may not be capable enough to handle such tasks yet.

The last one was in a subsidiary of a local bank.
The work load of this job is never ending and the working hours are definitely 12hours and above every single day.
I was selected (maybe because I have the slog-to-death look) and I was about to sign the contract tomorrow.
And miracles happened.
I am offered a permanent job in my department, back to the initial team.
Anyway, I think I am so blacklisted in that agency and company who I rejected.

Saturday, went to MS with Mad.
Then rush to AMK Hub to treat my parents and grandma to Dian Xiao Er.
Then back to town to meet Mad again.
And we went to this very nice bar to chill at Meritus Mandarin Hotel called the MEZEBAR.
The ambience was good.
The chairs were comfortable until some of the customers actually sleep there.
The songs sang by the singers were those old school songs.
The drinks were mixed perfectly, not too mild and not too strong.
And this time round, the night rider driver finally stopped. HAHA




Graduation ceremony 2007
I am graduating from Polytechnic.
Maybe I shall really admit old. HAHA
Anyway, though not everyone will be present tomorrow, I will still cherish the very last time stepping into NYP with FD.

Song intro: Wang ji - Lin Jun Jie

I want to be smarter than him.
7:16:00 PM