It was midnight shopping last Friday of May.
Mad and I were darn tired.
Then it is stay home Saturday.
Sunday, I went to Bugis with Mad.
Then proceed to Cathay and I had a small reunion with my Paragon colleagues at the new Gramophone there.
Practically almost all my colleagues going to work there and they miss me.
So do I. I love that job.
At that moment, I have the urge to quit BNP and work there.
And everyone thinks it is crazy.
Giving up the higher pay and pursue my interest.
I know I need to consider the future and also my family.
So I guess I have to scrap that idea and survive in the corporate world.
It is really hard to suppress the feelings and urge.
But reality always wins.
Anyway, I finished watching all the Pirates of the Caribbean.

Back to work, month end just sucks.
And I am so afraid of her.
She seems to be guarding me, making sure I do not have any spare time to slack.
But I am still coping well, trying to meet her expectations.
Furthermore, I don’t have the mood to care about her while another issue is occupying my thoughts.
Something that I won’t talk about, so don’t ask me.
I made a vow.
But I need to k or maybe I shall get the pei ban wa to cheer myself up.

Qiang’s birthday celebration at Bugis Tian Tian steamboat
Then to Jack’s old house
Happy birthday Qiang.

我又来乱写一统了
人生充满著许多的喜怒哀乐
在一天内经历这四种心情一定很难受吧

人最爱自己骗自己了
选择相信或不相信都会带来困扰
假装不知道不明白不记得也是一种逃避现实的方法
作人笨一点单纯一点未必是件坏事
至少有时被骗时根本就不知道这样也可以幸福一点吧
可是当你知道自己被欺骗时一定很难过
尤其当你对另一个人掏心掏肺但他却磨灭你对他的信任
感觉一定很糟

Song intro: My love my fate - Janice

I want to be smarter than him.
10:17:00 PM

I am watching a video, specially dedicated to Xu Wei Lun.
It is a remembrance concert for her.
Even though I did not watch any of her performance before, I am so touched by the concert and I even cried.
It was her dream to have a concert and album.
Her first album which was supposed to be out soon is called Guang Mang.
But she did not make it on time to fulfill her wish.
Not only that, I watched her best friends one by one go on stage to perform and say out their thoughts for her.
Like Cyndi Wang, Rainie, Lin Yi Chen, He Jun Xiang, Zheng Yuan Chang, Angela Zhang, Liang Jing Ru, Wang Li Hong, Cao Ge, Li Jiu Ze etc.
She was well loved by everyone.
I started crying when Cyndi Wang performed the song Ai Ni for her.
It is suppose to be a happy song and she tried her best to perform it well despite the fact that she just finished crying.
And they showed how happy was Cyndi and Wei Lun when they both performed this song during one of Cyndi’s concert.
I can really feel the friendships amongst all of them, especially between Cyndi and Wei Lun.
They even wrote and recorded a song for her.

天使的翅膀
黄嘉千:
每当我 仰望这片天空 星星不停闪烁

许志玮:
我总会想起你 天真的望着我

杨瑾华、张善为、阿弟:
那些有你的日子 我们多么快乐

范逸臣、王心凌:
Angel 你美丽的笑容 我愿为你守候

郑元畅、杨丞琳、贺军翔:
唱你最爱的歌 有祝福有宽容

施易男、林韦君、陈宇凡:
展开自由的翅膀 拥抱希望和辽阔

大合唱:
抬头仰望 我摊开无力 的手掌蓝色的天空 飞舞着 天使的 翅膀我用心倾听 你甜美声音好想你

李玖哲、曹格:
Angel你美丽的容颜 我愿为你守候

品冠、林依晨:
唱你最爱的歌 有祝福有宽容

BEN、霍建华:
展开自由的翅膀 拥抱希望和辽阔

大合唱:
抬头仰望 我摊开无力 的手掌蓝色的天空 飞舞着 天使的 翅膀我用心倾听 你甜美声音跨越穹苍 飞向远方
Angel随着祝福微风 旅行整个宇宙当你累的时候 别忘记还 有我生命因你而灿烂 花儿有你才芬芳
Angel~~~展开天使的翅膀不要害怕 尽情飞~~~~飞向远方

Song intro: Tian shi de chi pang - Various Artists

I want to be smarter than him.
6:01:00 PM

好朋友的定义。。
是不用拘束
是不用隐藏自己的真性情
是没有任何压力存在的

人生就是这样有一大堆令人搞不懂的起伏
有太多的意外有太多的莫名其妙
有时不明白是自己太过于感情用事 还是我就如同他们所说的太傻太笨
其实我是很聪明的只是反应比较慢一点 理解能力比别人差一点
而且我肯努力学习作事尽责 可是我还是常常糊里糊涂的犯错
唉。。好衰哦! 我可是很相信因果报应天理循环的喔
所以我对自己作人以及待人处事都要求非常严格
别人对不起我没关系我绝对不能对不起别人
可能就因此产生了我所谓的愧疚感
当然我可不是圣人不可能永远不反错

说到这里我想大家都听的一头雾水了吧
我就是这样喜欢用华语乱写一统
哈哈。。好了不学巧云用华语在部落格写日记了。

Song intro: xie xie ni de wen rou-SHE & Feilunhai

I want to be smarter than him.
11:45:00 PM

20% off all books at all Kinokuniya outlets till 21st May 2007
And I bought all my books.

I think most people will slap me left and right for buying these.
But I don’t care.
I feel much more delighted spending money on entertainments and gifts.

Anyway updating photos that we took at Fullerton Hotel.

Em.. Yummy.. Potatoes, prawns, fillet, sushi, dim sum, chicken rice, laksa etc.

The CAKES were the best! We ate more than 2 plates of desserts.

Boon and Lia

I like this blogskin because I just have to change the picture.
But the only thing is I need to adjust the picture size myself.
Still waiting for someone to lend me such software so I can change the photo to this.


Song intro: Yuan lai ze cai shi zhen zheng de ni - Cyndi Wang

I want to be smarter than him.
9:31:00 PM

I finally got a little much better.
But I had a final breakdown after those two days when I made a very idiot mistake.
I totally screw up the daily reports that I had prepared over the past one and a half months.
It is not that I am afraid that my superiors will reprimand me.
It was that my colleague had to redo her report for the past one and a half month.
I FELT SO SORRY AND GUILTY.
I was at the verge of quitting as I felt that I wasn’t up to this job at all.
But I was moved by what my VP consoled me.
She tapped on my shoulders and said something like that.
Don’t worry. Guo qu de jiu rang ta guo qu.

She was the second person throughout my life that moved me.
The first one shall be kept in mind.

Anyway I hope it is over.
I have learnt my lessons.

The first person that crossed my mind to share this was my best pal Joey.
As usual she can make my vexed mind settle.
She is indeed a very good listener.
I think it is the connection that actually makes people best pals.

Anyway I want to thank Angelia, Mad and Boon for listening also.

And also Jack for cheering me up by talking those craps with me.
Haha. That is what that made me laugh, distract me and not make me think so much.
The Luo Zhi Xiang’s videos also did a great help. LOLX
Super funny!

And the mahjong session with JQK and ariel last night.
Kept me company and occupied even though I wasn’t craving for mahjong and I lost money again.

So I am fine now. Haha.

Just please don’t disturb me with anything upsetting.

The trip to Fullerton Hotel was fulfilling.
We sat through an hour of presentation and were awarded with the best international buffet we have ever dined. LOLX
Every single dish was superb, even the drinks were amazing.
I am not exaggerating.
It was the best buffet I have ever eaten.
But it is a once a lifetime thing to enjoy international buffet at Fullerton Hotel.

Song intro: Jie kou - SHE

I want to be smarter than him.
3:14:00 PM

I’ve been wearing the new MU necklace for two consecutive days.
And I haven’t been lucky.
The necklace is cursed. HAHA
Just want to push the blame for the cause of my current mood.
I feel terrible.

The curse started yesterday after lunch.
A Hiroshima bomb (according to Mad) was thrown to me around 3 plus.
My superior wants me to finish this report by 5pm.
And I started slogging and only manage to finish it by 8 plus.
She was rather kind and patient for waiting.
[Though most of the time she will walk to my desk and ask if I had completed.]
But still, I didn’t meet the deadline.
I felt so useless for exceeding so much of the deadline.
The task was simple if you scored distinction for MS Excel and IFT.
I was fortunate that I was rather enthusiastic using my own Mathematics logic when Ms Sandra Teo practice the currency conversions during lab with us.
But to convert more than 1000 different currencies using different rates is time consuming.
This is where the Vlookup function in MS Excel comes in handy.
And seriously, that function sucks [because it is very case sensitive.]
But now, I am pro at it (after doing more than 10 times).
Anyway I failed to perform the impromptu report and felt that I was a hindrance.
Furthermore, I was darn dead beat and HUNGRY by the time I reach home.

Today, I woke up late and I was shag.
I was punished for being careless and had to redo work that I used two days to complete.
I was dejected because my cousin (the one I tutored) failed for Math exams.
I was even disheartened when my aunt actually found another tutor.
[Despite the fact that she kept emphasizing it wasn’t about my fault that she replaced someone else]

I just cannot understand why I always put so much effort but the results just don’t show.

And my favorite printer is down.

Song intro: Wu yue tian - SHE

I want to be smarter than him.
10:47:00 PM

I received my first pay.
AND I FINALLY GOT THESE


I have also opened an UOB account and my mini debit is coming in one to two weeks time.
Now I am starting to read up on various insurance and investment stuffs.
Planing to buy some insurance and also invest on some things.

And I began to like cute and happy songs lately.
Especially songs from Cyndi Wang, those songs will cheer you up when you are feeling down.
Anyway, I like the songs in her new album Magic Cyndi try here

Anyway Happy Birthday Ling, glad that you like the fossil watch that we bought.
The celebration on Friday began at MS Thai Express.
[Which I actually got the restaurant all wrong from what Ken intro]

Then after dinner, we sat at the stairs there as planned to drink my Johnny Walker, cut the cake and played games.
Then we proceeded to DXO where Jack joined after the opera. HAHA
But it was quite disappointing, first of all the free flow of drinks.
It was downstairs and each girl can only take a cup.
So we kept walking up and down to replenish our drink.
Then it was the music, it wasn’t really good.
And we ended quite early, the later part, I shall not talk about it.
And Ling came to my house to stayover, which was a very bad idea for me. LOLX
I slept at around 4am and I was force to wake up by her at 8 plus.

Okay then we had an impromptu BJP outing.
The three of us finally got to go shopping together.
And the best part was the successful neoprints that we took.
All 10 shots were almost perfect.
But we could only choose a few, so I wittily use my camera to take everything down. HAHAHAHA






Song intro: Woosa Woosa - Cyndi Wang

I want to be smarter than him.
6:05:00 PM

I finally submitted my timesheet on Friday.
But my pay, I believe it will come only next Wednesday or Thursday.
I am in huge debts, the most ever.
And I am grateful to my darling Mad for offering her help in such bad times.
So all of you bare witness, I will return her the money the very moment I get my pay.

Lately I kept thinking about my life, I mean future.
Because I realize that my life seems to be a bore.
During PHs, weekends etc, I really have nothing to do and nobody to accompany.
That is why on Labour Day, when I was pissed with my meaningless life, Mad’s date saved me from my misery.
And she seems to be my only company now.
But still, I cannot rely on her forever.
I need to find a goal, something to learn, something to do.
Get a driving license. What else? Em…

It seems that I have reached my limits and start to get sick of things that I used to be okay with, endure with.
I am not a saint I suppose.
I am just a normal human being.
And soon, I will blog out a list of things that I hate and love myself for.
But hate will definitely surpass love. HAHA

My darling and I have also found a very nice place to chill and we have been doing that for several nights already.
THE STAIRS OUTSIDE MARINA SQUARE
Lolx. Cool right?
Furthermore it is cheap, just one cup of drink which costs less than 2 bucks can last us for the whole night.

Anyway I miss my Secondary friends.
They are busy and so we haven’t been contacting for months.
I miss my best pal, Joey.
I miss that crazy girl, Hazel.
I miss that stupid guy, Kelvin.
I miss that elastic girl, Rubber.
I miss that trendy girl, Liping.
I miss that Sakae girl, Charlotte.
I miss that thoughtful girl, Limin.
So you guys better finish your exams and find me fast. HAHA

And I had a very unintelligent incident on Wednesday’s k.
I kept consulting people and the more I asked, the more I am convinced that I am stupid.
Okay, a car key and the button. Which will you use to open the car door?
I smartly chose the car key. Shall I explain more?
My performance, singing, has also deteriorated.
A handful times I sang below my standards and expectations.
If I can choose my own voice, I wish I could have Angela Zhang’s or Michelle Branch’s vocal.

Yesterday I had a busy day.
I went to work, on a Saturday, I know.
Then I celebrated Mothers’ Day at Crystal Jade Palace with my family.
Shopped around in town and AMK Hub, then I hurriedly came home to teach tuition.
After dinner, I went to chill with Mad.

Today I watched Spiderman III.
It was not bad, but I prefer the second one.
Guess who I watched it with? My dad and Mad
Welcome to my family Mad. HAHA.

Maybe I really suck at planning events.
The events that I participated organizing were never once successful.
Never mind, rotten luck I guess.

Song intro: Fu huo - Lin Yu Zhong and Jing Sha

I want to be smarter than him.
8:25:00 PM

It is another boring holiday.
And can you believe it, I OT-ed till 11pm on the eve of a PH.
No choice, it was the last day of the month.
But in return, I earned 40 bucks extra with 14 bucks dinner allowance and free cab fare.
I was darn tired man.
Well I am looking forward to my pay with all the OTs I did.

Later I will proceed to my uncle’s house to have a seafood feast.
I am not looking forward to it because I don’t know what to do there.
[Apart from waiting for dinner to start.]

I am now watching a Jap drama series Newswoman.
[If you want to watch it at crunchyroll, it is called News no onna.]
And it was that drama that I began to like Takki Hideaki.
He was so cute and suave okay. HAHA

Besides Zhang Dong Liang, he has the best and most mesmerizing smiles.
I feel that apart from one’s eyes, the smile is the next best feature to determine a person’s looks.

And I just painted my nails with 5 different colors again. HAHA
So cool..

I miss taking pictures and getting high taking pictures.
Hope that the discussion with Mad is going to work out.
HAHA. If it is, I think we will all go crazy.

Song intro: Ai de tian ling ling - Cyndi Wang

I want to be smarter than him.
2:32:00 PM