I think I fell into the pit once again.

Last 5 papers.
I am so not going to sleep these whole week!
Cant wait for friday to come.
FREEDOM!!

Song intro: I dont want to miss a thing - Aerosmith

I want to be smarter than him.
11:24:00 PM

Okay CNY celebration over.
I watched 3 good movies – The Protégé, Just Follow Law, and Twins Mission
Mugging in progress, hope we can all pull through this.
Can you believe it? Our final week
Have been moving around from houses to houses studying [Jack, Mad, and Angel]
I guess I still need more time.
And the trip to Angel’s house, I feel so happy because she cooked both lunch and dinner for me and also brought me luck to strike my first ever 4D. [Haha]
And today, my mum invited the BF crew to my house for dinner.
Last 3 days of mugging and the battle starts on Monday with the killer paper, IFT.
Endure and Persevere!!

Song intro: Listen - Beyonce

I want to be smarter than him.
2:25:00 AM

Describe CNY this year.
BORING because of the early ended visits and lack of events
PATHETIC because we only collected half of the red packets compared to previous years
(This is the only year when I actually cared because I need it for some purpose.)
DISAPPOINTED because the steamboat is not as nice as previous years
SAD because I took less than 10 pictures during these few days
ANGRY because my red shoes look aunty and it doesnt match my dresses at all.
The only miraculous thing was I won some money which I decided to share by giving treats to the people around me.
But I still enjoyed because I spend it with my family and relatives.

And this year, I realized some materialistic is really essential.
(Money, car and houses etc)
And for me, my future interconnects with the people around me.
Ever since I was in Primary school, I have realized responsibilities that I need to take.
So I am not only living and working for myself, but it is more of the future of those around me.
I can imagine the expenses that I will need.
I want to lead a comfortable life for those around me and myself.
SO STRIVE, EXCEL!!
Earn more money and lead a better life.
So I need to pass the exams and graduate from NYP.
Back to studies ~

Song intro: Feng - Tank

I want to be smarter than him.
8:47:00 PM

Sometimes I really dislike this craving of mine.
But it just comes naturally.
Can somebody satisfy my desire?

Today is the last day of school.
As usual, I am late.
Botak Jones with lingerie club at AMK BLK 608
The western food is really nice but I think I wont have much chance to eat there again.
Then went to town with Mad and watched The Protégé. [Thumbs up]
Anyway, Jack passed his driving.
And my mum just approved mahjong session and welcome with open hands people to come during CNY. HAHA

Song intro: Huang Yan - Shi Xin Huay

I want to be smarter than him.
10:52:00 PM

Happy V day to all!
Love all of you lots. [From my sec clique to BF13 to my dearest family etc]

Got a really nice, inspiring movie coming up!!!
DREAMGIRLS (based on true story)
Who wants to watch with me? hehe

Just came back from mugging at Jack house.
Causeway point John Little having discounts storewide.
I am in luck with the discounts on cosmetics. [Silky girl eye shadow & Revlon blusher]
And I just found out that the woodlands library is not demolished.
I am heading there to mug tomorrow.
I just cannot concentrate at home, too much distractions and excuses for me.

Yesterday was Angel’s last day of studying in school. [Friday will be ours]
During lunch, we chatted on everything we have been through.
Time really flies.
Orientation was like just 3 years back and some images are still fresh in my mind.
Jack was sitting beside me and he was my first friend in NYP. [I remember him as the one who snatched my seat. HaHa]
Mad was the first friend I approached [because she resembles my friend] and we are close together since then.
Kenny was the first guy I noticed, Shevon was the first girl I noticed. [I blushed when talking to them and dare not look into their eyes]
My first impression of Yixiang was he was our leader. [He was the one to lead us in cheer]
My first impression on Weiling was she was always the first to be in class.
I was impressed by Qiang’s presentation on himself.
I remember Joseph as the birthday guy on our first class outing to Sentosa.
I remember Angel as the Malaysian Chinese speaking girl.
I remember Angelia as the girl who is very bubbly.
I remember Qamarul as the professional emcee of SBM.
I remember Boon as the very polite guy.
Anyway, I hope I will never have any meomory loss when I grow older.
Back to serious mugging.

Song intro: Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C

I want to be smarter than him.
11:31:00 PM

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I want to be smarter than him.
10:35:00 PM

Study or Work Analysis

Study
Interested: Marketing, anything with tourism or hospitality, business courses except for banking and finance
Need to get loan from banks which means graduate need to work for bank
Need to apply for what course or I should say which course I can get into.

Work
Interested: NIE, marketing, anything with tourism or hospitality, business except for finance and insurance companies
NIE need to apply, with 3 years bond, poly grads can only teach Primary school, need to go through test

I am still not determined.

Today mahjong with Jack, Qiang and Lia, I won 3 bucks.
I am starting to mug.
Anyway I am not that dumb after all, I know what is happening.
But still, sighs.

Song intro: Qing tian yu - Tank

I want to be smarter than him.
9:24:00 PM

FINALLY the projects are all over.
And soon, I will miss the times in Poly.
And I promise I will start mugging soon.

Summary of all projects
CB & PFP – Should be okay la.
IFT – Live or die, not sure, but had great help from May.
CAA – Good comments from Madam Goh on the Macro-analysis.
QM – All thanks to Kenny that I did not go off track.
IB – The worse is finally over, really happy that my members were there (especially to Jack for doing so many important parts and Mad for accompanying me till late night), I think all of us worked very hard this time, but I am so disappointed with my own part.

Actually everyone should give a tap on your shoulders.
You guys have worked hard.
Well, all the stayovers to pia projects are over.
I think people like Jack and Mad should be sick of my place and also the food here.
Did not sleep on Thursday and everyone was frightened by my looks on Friday.
So the BF group all chased me home. LOL
Kenny was kind by offering to send me home when he was not feeling well.
Anyway, then I swear I will not sleep but I fell asleep till I did not notice that the others came.
Two tables of Mahjong and I lost around 20 bucks.
If it is not for my Shifu Qiang and Angel’s luck, I would have lost more.
Every time when I am on the verge of losing till I want to cry, Qiang will just sit down and in split seconds, I recoup back with a Mantai. HAHA

Today, I went out with my Sec friends.
Went to Junction 8 to eat Sushi at 4pm when I just ate lunch.
The whole building was super crowded with Luo Zhi Xiang’s fans.
I didn’t know he was so popular in Singapore.
Then we head to Haji lane, then to Bugis to eat again.
And we swear that our next outings will be something different.
No more sushi, swensens, fish and co etc.

Song intro: Close - Westlife

I want to be smarter than him.
1:11:00 AM

Shopping with Mad yesterday in town.
These are the best few neoprints.

And I have decided to leave.
Even though heartbroken, but i still feel i made a wise choice.

Song intro: Fei ni mo shu - Tank

I want to be smarter than him.
11:29:00 AM

I have been trying not to be obvious.
But I think I gave myself away when I am not talking to anyone or silently doing my things.
Now, I cannot differentiate what is right and what is wrong.
I hate my contradicting character, always looking things at two sides.
And I always feel that without me, things will be better.
It seems like I have been a hindrance all along which I failed to notice it in the past.
I believe what I believe in, which always turns out wrong.
I chose to trust when the obvious is already there.
I feel stupid. Or actually, I am stupid.
I dont know what am I thinking.
I kept hurting people.
And I kept hurting myself.
I am just another pathetic weakling.

Two more projects down.
I went to k with JK on Thursday.
And all of us sang till no voice.
And my mood was much better after that.
It works.
And I think I scare all my members yesterday.
Because they called me for more than 20 plus times and I just cannot wake up.
It was when my sister, who is very meticulous with noise, woke me when she was irritated by my phone’s vibration.
Luckily, I wasnt late for my presentation.
It wont happen again, I hope.

Song intro: Dear Tank - Tank

I want to be smarter than him.
12:30:00 PM