AH!!!!!!!! I am so nervous now can..
HAHA.. All the things I study before, I cannot remember any.
LOLX.. I think I will blank out tomorrow when I go for the interview..
HELP!!!!!!

I want to be smarter than him.
11:04:00 PM

The conversation went on for 10 minutes.
She looks enthusiastic but I can feel none of her enthusiasm.
Nevertheless she was kind to accept every request of mine patiently.
Whether or not she is sincere, I still want to thank her.
I walked out of her room, sigh, and applauded to Miss Joanne Koo.
She finally found back herself.
She was unexpectedly calm throughout the whole discussion.
But still, she hopes to leave before Monday comes, not to witness her own failure.
She lost, not to the newcomer oldcomer, to herself.
Not being capable enough, experienced enough and to dream too far.
But after all these setbacks, it serves as a motivation to push her to be stronger than before.
In order to survive, knowledge and experience is something you cannot lack in this society.
Therefore, she has to enrich herself; picking up the habit of reading newspapers, reading books that bores people to death.
So wish her luck.

I really need all the luck.
Especially for tomorrow, I have an interview for the Business Analyst position.
Well, I missed that Credit Analyst job due to my darn faulty phone.
Anyway, I am so excited and nervous.
Maybe I do need to exchange brains with Kenny.
I still don’t get it why will he ever want my brain.
HAHA. And what kind of compliment is that?
Maybe it is just too complicated for me to understand.
But there is an advantage to use my brain. LOLX
You can save money from cutting botak.
The experts told me hair loss is usually due to stress.
And that is one of my problems now. LOLX
My face seems to have these words “I am stress” because almost everyone will ask me whether I am very stress lately.
Indeed, I have been pushing myself real hard to meet all my expectations.
Maybe I shall release myself from this tension.

Anyway those who are too stress out at work, HANG ON BUDDIES!!

Song intro: Qi shi hai ai ni - Huang Han Qing

I want to be smarter than him.
1:10:00 AM

Case Study: The Pikachu and Ash story
Pikachu is the chief pokemon under Ash.
Other pokemons like Charmender and Bulbursur are junior pokemons.
One day Charmender decides to leave Ash because there seems to be no chance to get the chief pokemon position.
Then Pikachu decides to retire soon and Bulbursur became the only pokemon under Ash that can be promoted to chief.
But unexpectedly, Ash decides to hire back Charmender as the chief pokemon instead of letting Bulbursur promote.
What should Bulbursur do now?

Crap.

Finally I met my Secondary friends on Friday and Sunday.
Though not all of them turned up but I was still happy to see them.
But none of them is willing to give me a hug. HAHA
Happy 20th Birthday Charlotte!
Hope you like the Queen’s Couture Little Miss Lucky and Little Miss Trouble T-shirts.
So these were the pictures we took on the celebration at CWP yesterday.

Our dinner at The Soup Restaurant. We had samsui chicken, salad prawn, beggar's toufu, stir fry slice fish, sambal kang kong for only 80plus (6pax).

This is my favourite. Beggar's Toufu.

Hazel and I

The attendance.

Yesterday I finally found time to go fix my hair.
Mad and I went to cut, dye and do treatment.
But my first dye is still not that obvious la.

New songs to introduce!!
Jay Chou - Bu neng shuo de mi mi TRY HERE
Lin Jun Jie - Xi Jie album TRY HERE
Wang Li Hong - Luo ye gui gen TRY HERE

I am very touched to have all of you so supportive despite the rocky career path I have now. [I did not tell a lot of people so you should know who you are.]
I should be able to speak to my superior later.
Wish me luck and also pass me all the courage.

Song intro: Bu neng shuo de mi mi - Jay Chou

I want to be smarter than him.
1:03:00 PM

我觉得上辈子我一定是个超走运，冰雪聪明的大美女。
不然为何今世我需要得到报应，让我活在恰好相反的人生里。
难怪我朋友都爱说我很像在"蔷薇之恋"里饰演郑百合的 Ella。
我以前不明白，现在我终于了解到其中的含义。
在戏里的女主角又丑，又笨，矮矮胖胖的，又很自卑，而且是个爱哭鬼。
不止是这样，我这个翻版女主角还是个被衰神缠身的人。
什么过马路被车撞，到池塘边玩会掉进水里，走路跌倒等数不清莫明其妙的衰事我都碰上过。
可是唯一不一样的是，我从不轻易在别人面前流泪。
我这一生只在家人以外的人流过四次泪。
第一次在小学五年级，当老师在班上告诉我们一位我不认识的老师去世了。
第二次是在中二，因为踏到一位在同一个部队朋友的脚，把她弄哭了还被她骂了脏话，而内疚的哭了。
第三次是在中四，因为自己因车祸行动不变而需要别人照顾，觉得自己是个包袱。
最后一次是在 Dynamic Asia 工作的最后一天，家里又吵个鸡犬不宁。
虽然都过去了，可是都还历历在目。
昨天我非常的难过，自己和以往一样一直忍主眼泪。
在地铁上闭上眼睛，眼泪还是直流不停。
我想找人诉苦，可是却有口难言。
那六个字"去自我反省吧"，也一直在我耳边重复着。
奇怪地是我想诉苦的那两个对象是我出乎意料的。
但我始终还是没勇气打电话给他们。
因为实在很奇怪，也不想太依赖他人。
再过一会儿吧，等一切成了定局我再跟大家说到底发生什么事。
你们放心，我可是看过无数的偶像剧的。
什么"跌倒也要豪迈的笑"，什么"笑一笑没什么事过不了"。
这种名句我懂可多呢。
那就祝我好运吧!

This is another nice nice show..
Huan Huan Ai, a little like Er mo zai shen bian..
But I think this is nicer because I did not finish watching devil beside you till now. HAHA


Song intro: Sha shou - Lin Jun Jie

I want to be smarter than him.
12:07:00 AM

Fantastic Four - Rise of the Silver Surfer
Not bad. Jessica Alba is so pretty.


This is not coffee, so do not be surprise. HAHA

The strawberry cake was so attractive.
Therefore even though I was not hungry or have any craving, I just want to buy and eat it.
But I still prefer the taste of the Goldmine Cheesecake from NYDC.

Okay I know sometimes the others will feel that the things I do are nonsensical.
I always want to be the one protecting others, taking care of others, worried for others, leading others, helping others but most of the time I will end up needing help, protection, taken care of and worried about.
But I just cannot help not to follow my instincts.
Therefore yesterday I did another dumb and silly act and got myself shabby.
Darn those Night Rider bus drivers, this is not the first time they ignore me completely.
This time round I panicky went after it because that was my only hope home.
[It was raining, cold and I was too far away from ATMs when I finally gave up and lost sight of my search quest.]
But as I was about to swear on the roads, I turned about and saw a glimpse of hope home.
I was lucky once again.
Sometimes I wonder if I have really been through uniform group.
For the survival skills I have learnt, I seem to have all forgotten.
But I warn all readers, NEVER comment about my guides.
Because I may not be a good guider but that does not mean that my guides is incompetent.

My craps.


42% scored higher (more stupid),
4% scored the same,
and 54% scored lower (less stupid).
You are 54% stupid.
This means...
You are, on average, smart and stupid.
Read a few more books and decrease your score!

Song intro: Ji fen - Luo Zhi Xiang

I want to be smarter than him.
10:28:00 AM

Happy 20th Birthday Angelia!
I bet you had a great week of celebration with all the surprises.
[For more information you can read her blog.]
Monday, the 3 of us went to Partyworld to have an advanced celebration with her.
It was quite fun and emotional at the same time when we started the talks instead of singing.
We were also hooked to the machine outside with the games.

The next day, I refuse to work so I self declared MC and marathon my show.
Then Jack invited me to his new house to play.
And I reach home at 3am.

Thursday I was so down, I OT-ed till 8plus and walked around aimlessly at boat quay.
Initially I intended to go chomp chomp to eat but I had no idea where is it.
When I reached home, it was already 11 plus then I was tricked to go out.
But at least that trip out actually cheered me up a little.
At least I need not confront my parents without cooling down at all.
And I reached home at 3am again.
The next day at work I was practically sleeping.

The past few days I was pissed off with myself for being so ignorant.
I foresee in the future I will be burdened with all the debts especially with my polytechnic and pending university fees.
I did not expect all these and now all my savings plans are ruined.
If I had anticipated all these, particularly my polytechnic fees, I would have used all my past savings, my past part time salaries and money from red packets to pay off.
And I must stress the point that if I did all those mentioned above, I would have paid off everything by the end of this year.
BUT there are no ifs.
So I shall not ponder over the past and start to think of solutions.

Sometimes I just hate to admit that I am dumb. HAHA

Joey faster comes back from Melbourne. HAHA

Oh yes, anybody wants to enroll with me to SIM (Part Time Banking and Finance) for the class next year?
HAHA Angel, Mad and I going to check out more at SIM next week.
So want to see if any other people interested.

And I want to go Chomp Chomp eat.
Somebody please bring me there!!
Lolx I don’t know how to go and the location.

Yeah Fantastic Four later!

This song is my all time favourite in Primary School.

让我欢喜让我忧 - 周华健

爱到尽头 覆水难收
爱悠悠恨幽幽
为何要到无法挽留
才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧
为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候
独自泪流 独自忍受

多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续 难再续

就请你给我多一点点时间 再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间 再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受

你这样一个女人
让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你
付出我所有

Song intro: Rang wo huan xi rang wo you - Zhou Hua Jian

I want to be smarter than him.
9:54:00 AM

FINALLY the weekends is here, but ending.

I fell down again and it was damn embarrassing. Lolx.

Friday night went to Chinatown with Mad to have dinner.
We ate dim sum.

I slept at 2am and woke up at 5 plus to have breakfast at Mac first.
Crazy? No, because I need to prepare to meet Mad at 9am at Habourfront.
Whoever is late, is a tortoise.
And I won! HAHA. Mad still owes me a tortoise dance.
So even though tired, it is all worth it.
I went to try the LRT and took quite a few pictures.
Even though I look damn tourist, but I don’t care. HAHA






We alighted at Siloso (the last time we were here was on the last day of our papers with BF).
The sun was scorching hot so most of the time I was hiding in the shade while Mad exposed herself fully to the sun. LOL.
Even though I came prepared with my cap, my shades and stuff, I AM STILL BURNT!!
What the hell. HAHA. Never mind, Mad is worse than me if you read her blog.
In the middle of tanning, I went to Sushi Sakae to buy food and I saw the guys.
They didn’t see me because of some reasons. LOL.
Anyway, the food was nice.
Then went to Vivo to shop and eat again.
HAHA, I don’t mind going again to Sentosa but wait till I recover from my burns.

Then at 11pm, I went to AMK K box (the new one) to sing with my sis and mum.
It was darn expensive and we three almost fell asleep in there because we ended at 3am.

Work again tomorrow, still waiting and hoping that they will convert me to permanent staff.
I have decided to continue working and take part time degree next year.

Recently, I chat with a few of my Primary school friends.
I was quite surprise that almost all of my primary school friends remembers me, for those that don’t, it was because I didn’t chat with them so I wasn’t sure.
Even after so many years, they still consider me as their monitress.
And all of their comments were the same.
But I haven’t been doing my job these years to organize any gatherings as promised.
Due to that last gathering at Sentosa which was a failure a few years back, less than a quarter of the class turned up.
Anyway, Ching-I is coming back from Canada in August.
Seriously, I am curious with all of their lives now.

People who always help others, are the ones that really needs help themselves.
These words of wisdom were from one of my Primary school friends, Weiming.
He was really witty.
Resembles someone but there’s something different between both of them.
He uses positive language. LOLX
And it was really kind of him to always offer to listen to my woes.
Thank you.

Mandy, someone from NYP whom I knew from another department in BNPP is leaving soon.
I believe, if we were in the same department, we will be really good friends.
Anyway I am going to miss her because she is really nice, friendly, pretty and sweet.

I keep telling myself, I am really fortunate and happy.
Because I have a lot of people concern about me, nice to me.
Weiming says I only have myself to thank because I get what I sow.
Kindness begets kindness; this is what he told me.
But I differ so, because I always try to help and make it worse or do nothing at all.
So I still feel fortunate to get all the concerns.

Okay I think I blog far too much today.

Song intro: Li jia chu zhou - Janice

I want to be smarter than him.
1:45:00 PM

ZODIAC - Very thrilling and interesting true story
It is worth watching.
But still, I dislike the ending.
Anyway Mad and I were very sleepy and tired after watching that.

Well, I came to blog because I was quite upset after chatting with Jack.
He didn’t bully me of course.
It is just that he reminds me that he is going to NS next week.
Okay wait, please don’t misunderstand HAHA.
Not only him, and also all the other guys that I knew are going in one by one.
Suddenly, I thought of this line…
One by one my brothers left me.
LOLX. But still, it is hard to actually tell the guys and say I will miss you lots etc.
I am still conservative when it comes to expressing the true concerns and thoughts for guys.
So I always choose to use a different method which I think they will never be sensitive enough to feel that, which is actually good.
At least, it makes me less awkward.

Anyway just in case I don’t see you before you guys go in…
Take care brothers and stay in touch.
Look forward to see all of you when you are out.

Song intro: Ru guo - Zhang Dong Liang

I want to be smarter than him.
11:22:00 PM

Haven’t been really smiling lately
Most people thought it was because of that colleague.
Okay I admit that she is a little mean at times but I have been through worse treatments.
So it was still okay.
No matter what, I have got over the real issue that is bothering me, hopefully.
So ask me no more.

My pay is coming soon but I shall be on budget so that I can reach my 1000 bucks UOB savings soon.
Furthermore, I just bought a Whole Life insurance plan from UOB – Life Protector Plus.
It wasn’t that initial Life Protector 20 that I intended to buy
(which I only have to pay the premium for 20 years and it will cover me for my entire life)
The one that I bought will benefit my family most.
Especially when I die, the sum insured will be 1.4 times the original.
That was the reason I changed my mind on the spot.
Not impulsive, I assure all of you.
I am never so sure of what I want.

Anyway, this long ze look-alike guy that I bump into almost everyday at Raffles.
I am not having any crush or feelings for him.
Just that it is so coincidental.
Whether I am on the train, at an eatery, on the streets etc, I will still see him once every working day.
And I didn’t know I will blush for a stranger.
Just because that day I told to Lia and Boon he was just behind out table and that long ze guy noticed that we were talking about him.
That is embarrassing. Lol.

New workload on Monday and praying that a successful k session will come next week
And also hope that Zhang Dong Liang's Wang Zi will faster have a CD plus DVD version so that I can buy.

Song intro: Wang zi - Zhang Dong Liang

I want to be smarter than him.
1:14:00 AM